For the first time in months I could not sleep, I was so excited.
About time too. Between classes, cleaning, events, and planning the trip through central america I'd almost missed it. That desire to go simply did not exsist. I was going because, well, I'm a leader... I have to. All the goals, encouragment, even the words out of my own mouth rang empty in my heart.
But the worst part is I didn't stop to question it. Until I picked up this book, read the first couple chapters, then put it back. Couldn't go any further... my mind was reeling.
Desire. When Jesus spoke to people he appealed to their desire. Their thirst. Their hunger. Dared them to look into their hearts, and see if something in them did not scream for more... life beyound selfishness... fear... monotony. And all we do is ask him. because he IS life, and life to the full.
And suddenly it clicked. All the stories I'd listen to, or make up. About a group of warriors on a dangerous mission. The risks are huge, but the tasks of utmost importance. And each one has a special ability to work with the rest and overcome. These are the stories I'd daydream through highschool to create, I love it! Cause it's my desire... to be on an adventure like that. To risk it all and overcome. Then I realized....
I'M DOING IT! this is it! that IS the reality! here I am leading this team through central america and our war is not against flesh and blood but against powers and principalities.... that real people may find true life and a relationship with the God who's heart is breaking over them. to abolish death and isolation. and on and on and on.... And how could I have missed this! That what I'm doing has always been the desire of my heart... and a living reality. It's scarry what can be before our very eyes, in plain sight, yet we do not recognize it.
And how I could do the same things, but with the wrong understanding... dragging myself through everday, instead of living in the fullness. Just because my eyes were squeezed shut. Wow.
God remind me to open my eyes every morning, never satisfied with a short sighted life. Every day is an adventure. What will I choose?
About Me
- Laura Uebele
- I grew up romping around the jungles of Papua New Guinea while my parents took on 12 years of Bible translation. When I was 13 we abruptly moved back to the United States, and for five years I forgot my first love. Jesus, the God of the Universe. Forsaking Him for the acceptance of people, escape of drugs, and comfort of hiding in my pride and afflictions. But He didn't care how pathetic I'd become! He held me fast with His grace, and opened my eyes to the dangerous road I was on. Now I am committed to where He's leading me, even though so far it's been totally different than I expected!